As You Were

Chapter 7

The Open Road

She told them at first light.

Synn had given them rooms — small, clean, the kind of functional comfort that spoke of an institution that understood the value of keeping people rested. Alice had lain awake for most of the night with the device in her hand and the amber light making slow pulse-shadows on the ceiling, working through what she knew and what she suspected and what she was going to say and in what order.

Adrian was already awake when she sat up. He'd been lying on his back in the dark, hands folded on his chest, doing the same thing from the other direction.

"Show me," he said.

She showed him.

He held the device for a long time, studying the amber light the way he studied maps — with his whole attention and without urgency, letting the information settle into the part of his mind that processed distance and terrain and what stood between here and there.

"How far?" he asked.

"Eleven days on foot. Less with transport."

"Do we have transport?"

"Not yet."

He was quiet for a moment. Then he set the device down between them on the bed and looked at it, and she looked at it, and the amber light pulsed steadily in the pre-dawn dark.

"She gave this to you," he said. "Not Roger. Not me."

"Yes."

"She knew you'd decide whether to use it."

"I think she knew I'd already decided," Alice said.

He looked at her. Not with surprise — with the expression he had when she said something that was also true of him, and he was deciding whether to say so. He reached over and picked up the device again, turned it in his hands once, and put it in his own pocket.

"I'll get Roger," he said.


Roger's response, when they explained it, was to look at the ceiling for approximately four seconds.

Then: "Synn's been trying to locate the fourth Unchanged for three months."

"She has the coordinates," Alice said. "She gave them to me."

"She gave them to you and not to Whitethorn," Roger said. "Which means she either doesn't trust him with them, or she needs someone outside Earthanica's authority to act on them. Or both."

"Both," Adrian said.

Roger looked at his hands. "My mission was to infiltrate the Manic base and return. I've returned. Technically, I'm done."

"Technically," Alice agreed.

A pause. "Whitethorn will have questions for me regardless. About the mission, about the three weeks, about—" He stopped. Something moved across his face that Alice had learned to recognise as Roger choosing between a shorter and a longer version of his own thoughts. "He'll have questions."

"Which you can answer," Adrian said. "Or not."

Roger looked at him. "You're not asking me."

"I'm not asking you."

"That's a very precise way of not asking someone something."

"You know where we're going," Adrian said simply. "You know what's following us. And you know what Whitethorn will do with us if we're still here when the morning briefing ends and he decides that hospitality stops being useful." He stood. "Come if you want. Stay if you want. I'm not putting it on you."

Roger sat with that for a moment.

Then he stood up.

"Right," he said. "I'll need boots that actually fit."


Koffee found Yara.

This was not, in any meaningful sense, the plan — the plan involved locating the vehicle bay, identifying whether Yara's truck was still there, and assessing whether it could be moved without triggering the bay's logging system. What actually happened was that Koffee, given minimal supervision in the corridor while Adrian consulted the building's layout, navigated two floors of Motherbase with unearned confidence and arrived outside a door that, when Alice knocked on it somewhat helplessly, opened to reveal Sergeant Yara Voss, dressed and awake, holding a cup of something hot.

She looked at Alice. She looked at Koffee. She looked at the expression on Alice's face.

"How soon?" she said.

"An hour," Alice said. "Maybe less."

Yara drank her cup in silence for a moment, looking at something that wasn't in the corridor.

Alice had spent the night trying to read Synn's motives and Whitethorn's moves and the geometry of a situation she'd arrived in with no context. She was tired of reading people. She took a breath and said simply: "I know we're asking for something. I know we don't have the standing to ask for it. The truck, or just access to the bay — either one, and we won't put your name near any of it."

"The Survivalists hit the outer perimeter twice last night," Yara said. "Probing, not attacking. Checking the defences." She set down her cup. "Whitethorn pulled three scout units back from the eastern sector to reinforce the south wall. Which means the eastern vehicle exit is running on automated logging for the next six hours." She looked at Alice with the steady, particular look of a person who has made a decision and is communicating it without saying it. "The bay access code resets at 0600. Currently it's 0512."

Alice held her gaze. "Thank you."

"Don't," Yara said. "I didn't do anything." She picked up her cup again. "The truck has a full charge. The route compiler has the eastern territories loaded." She glanced down at Koffee. "The dog should travel in the back. There's a blanket behind the rear seat."

She stepped back and closed the door.


They moved through the building in the way of people who have done something like this before in places that were far less forgiving — low and quiet and purposeful, not rushing, because rushing looks like fleeing and there was a version of this where they were simply three people and a dog taking an early departure, and they needed to be that version until they were through the gate.

The building was not empty. Motherbase ran through the night, the city's operations continuing on a schedule that had nothing to do with sunrise. They passed two technicians in a corridor who did not look up. A security post at the stairwell where the guard was occupied with something on his forearm display and waved them through on the strength of Yara's intake authorisation, which was still the last record of their presence in the system.

Roger stopped once, at a junction near the laboratory floor.

Adrian stopped beside him.

"She's up there," Roger said. Not a question.

"Probably," Adrian said.

Roger looked at the ceiling, in the direction of Synn's laboratory, with an expression Alice couldn't fully read. Something complicated, with history in it.

"Tell her—" he started.

"We'll find the fourth Unchanged," Alice said. "Whatever they found. We'll send it back to her."

Roger looked at her. Nodded once, shortly.

They kept moving.


The vehicle bay was cold and smelled of composite materials and charging fluid and the particular electric quiet of machines at rest. Yara's truck was where she'd said it would be — third bay from the east exit, charge indicator reading full, keys in the mount above the driver's seat in a way that suggested either carelessness or deliberate convenience.

They loaded quickly. Koffee went in the back without argument and located the blanket behind the seat with a speed that suggested either an excellent nose or prior experience with operational departures.

Adrian drove. Roger took the passenger seat and pulled up the route compiler. Alice sat behind them with the device in her hand, the amber light finding the coordinates, the compiler finding the coordinates, the two of them confirming each other.

The eastern exit gate was automated. A scanner swept the vehicle — logging them, presumably, as something — and the gate opened, and then they were outside, in the cool dark of the pre-dawn, the walls of Motherbase receding in the mirror.


No one spoke for a while.

The road east was different from the roads they'd travelled before — not maintained, exactly, but passable, evidence of recent use in the way the surface had been cleared and the worst of the rupture's damage filled in. Someone had been coming this way. Possibly many someones.

The sky ahead was beginning to lighten, a pale grey turning toward the particular rose-gold of a clear morning, and the landscape on either side moved from the after-world's strange altered terrain to something more open — wide stretches of land where the rupture had heaved the ground into low rolling forms that the pre-dawn light touched into something almost beautiful.

Alice watched it through the window.

Behind them, Motherbase's glow diminished slowly, the bioluminescent light softening into the general brightening of the sky, until it was just a warmth on the horizon, then a suggestion of warmth, then nothing.

"Roger," Alice said, without turning from the window.

"Mm."

"Strauskadz. At the outpost — when Whitethorn said you found something. What did you find?"

A long pause.

"Documents," Roger said. "Intelligence files. Predating the rupture by three years. They described the signal — not by that name, but the phenomenon. The lights, the voices, specific individuals who had been receiving them." He paused. "They described you by name. Both of you. Before the rupture happened."

The car was very quiet except for the sound of the road.

"Someone knew," Adrian said.

"Someone knew. And Whitethorn found those files at the same time I did. We looked at each other over that table and neither of us said anything. And then the minefields went off." Roger looked out at the lightening road. "By the time I came back from the hospital, the files were gone from the official record. And there was a letter on my bunk telling me you were both dead."

Alice turned from the window. She looked at the back of Roger's head.

"He was protecting those files," she said. "Not us."

"I've had ten years to think about it," Roger said. "That's my conclusion, yes."

The rose-gold light spread across the horizon ahead of them, and the road unreeled, and Koffee shifted in the back and resettled with a sigh of profound comfort.

"Someone knew we were coming," Alice said. "Before we even arrived."

She looked at the amber light in her palm.

She thought about the annotated book left in a ruined library — *the stars are not waiting to be understood. They are waiting to be answered* — and about the fog plain and the patterns and the voice that had followed them out of the bunker and all the way here, and she thought: whatever is at the end of these coordinates knew too.

It had been waiting a long time.

So had they, without knowing it.

She closed her fingers around the device, and Adrian drove east into the morning, and Act II ended the way it had to end — not with an answer, but with three people who had finally stopped being managed and started moving toward the truth on their own terms.